summer
last time i updated was in april, it's august now! wow! there's a lot that happened in the past few months.
my depression isn't as bad. i feel happier and more stable than before. i've a job i like. my friend group's stable too, i don't feel as alone. (i love my friends!) though it came with this strange feeling, like it's all too good to be true. dealing with constant shit for the 4 years prior to graduating made me feel like that was all there is. it's been a year now since graduation and i still deal with that shit. but it's alright now, honestly. i've the space to heal and gather my shit in a way i wasn't to before. even with this feeling, the reality is that i AM stable, and better than before.
and with that said, i've finally done something i've been wanting to do for years.
i'm finally on testosterone! i'm medically transitioning! yay!!!
i've been wanting to get on t for years, but i finally went through with it last month. my hrt appointment was on july 15th, no less. mirio's birthday, haha. i even got my prescription on august 3rd, when a bnha episode featuring sir nighteye came out. honestly, it all aligns for me.
took three weeks for my prescription to be ready but i only got it a few days ago (this being written on august 5th, 2024).
it's honestly so exciting. things really are looking up. i'm so excited to see what my life holds for me right now. things are always a little weird and unconventional for me, but things are good right now. it's honestly fun.
my website is still something i'm working on, and am even trying to implement some ideas now.
i haven't felt this in ages, but i'm so content being alive right now. things are good. i love being alive.