birthday
it was my birthday a few days ago! that’s absolutely crazy. i know i haven’t updated my site in a bit but i’ve been trying to just. live, i suppose. as much as i love coding, i mainly worked on the website when i had nothing better to do. and now i uh.. have a few things i’ve been busy with.
it’s crazy to think i’ve made it this far out. i’m not exactly sure what would’ve happened, but i didn’t think i would. i know that high school tends to be difficult for a lot of people but it was absolutely harsh on me. it’s something that, even though i am healing from that, i don’t think i’ll ever really be able to let it go. trauma really does that to you.
but this was nice. this past week, march as a whole so far, it’s been kind to me. i’ve been presented with opportunities i didn’t have before, all thanks to the people in my life. my friends have been making time for me. they came for my birthday. got to celebrate my birthday with the people i love. been busy (in a good way, this time.)
it’s something i’m still so unused to. my depression isn’t as bad. the sun has been out a lot more. it gets dark out later. although i still have those nights it’s like .. they’re not as heavy as before. they’re manageable now.
as silly and sappy as this sound, i really believe my birthday, and the celebration with it, was a wonderful reminder of the people in my life and the growth i’ve experienced. crazy to think that i’ve had a hard time believing that people wanted me around.
here’s to myself, and the eventual future that i’ll be apart of. _